healing, pain, sexual harrasmemt

Lost and found.

Some days

When the nights are too dark

And the owls howl around

The mangrove spread its branches

And the mud goes deep and down.

That man meddling inside my mind

Walks on me in these hours

I desire to bustle and breathe

But I feel dull and devoured.

I run into the circles

Searching for the lost parts of mine

And find myself trapped

With a broken spine.

On those some days

I don’t know what to do.

So,

I wrap my hands around my knees

Sit beneath the shower.

Gasp the sunshine from the window

That blooms my budding flower.

I keep my wounds in bare hands

Allows them to heal.

The past will terrify sometimes, I tell

Look, the present is sound and serene.

The nights will turn dark

The owls will howl around.

But after some days

White lilies will spread itself

The mud won’t go deep and down.

Winter sun won’t lose its way

But it will nurture the ground.

These some days

It’s a matter of time.

Someday soon, I know

I will feel my skin

limbs, and

bones

Again, like mine.

Healing is a tiring phase.

-Noor

                             

 

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strength

You are not alone.

In your middle 20s, when you change your country, career and curl upon something completely new, it’s a different feeling.

It’s a two sided feeling where you feel strong for a second like you own the world and you can do anything and a feeling of nothing is possible at the same time.

If you can relate to this, I just want to say that you are not alone and every time you feel this, do remember that things work out, maybe when you least expect them. It starts with an uncertainty and then there is a long road which requires you to believe in hope.

There will be phase when your constant work towards your dreams will make you strong enough to conquer the world alone and you will realise you made it to your destination and you achieved everything you manifested.

So, even if it sucks, don’t give up, you are almost there.

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What being stuck feels like.

And at that moment I was stuck like a frozen river. Like nothing is holding me back nothing is keeping me moving forward. I am still. My feet are inside the sand above which water is floating and syncing with waves. I can see the sunshine seeping into my eyes, slightly opened from the edge of my cornea, I can feel words behind my tongue, hiding yet trying to come out and I know that I am not dead because there is a rhythm in which my heart is whispering to my ears that I am not shattered, I am tired.

Feeling stuck is just a phase.

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mothers day

Mother

Hiding emotions is an art
I inherited from my mother.

She is like
A winter sun.

Kissing my forehead
And calming the storm.

Like the sun kisses the flowers
And the rays
Rhyming the lullaby.

She made me realise
You are a women
Enough for yourself.

You are the universe
And the universe
Resides in you.

You are born
To spread love.
And. You deserve
More than you think.

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sexual harrasmemt

How I turned into an art?



Like a doll, you
assured me, the harm.

Ripped the fibers
of my frock, at first.

Turned my head then , and
splitted those arms.

To find honey between those legs,
You finally set them apart.

Enough force, some
Were still unable to pare.

With those still intact parts , I mended
the scattered pieces of my heart.

Before you, I was a little doll.
It was your act of carnality.

That Turned me
into an art.

That turned me
Into an art..
                                           – Noor



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body shaming, health, insecurities, pain, poem

My mirror made me realise.

Chubby cheeks, sweaty thighs
Flabby arms plus short height.

Being fat and bulky, I
Was never their favourite child.

Bitter taunts and weight loss tips
Used to be my feed at dine.

It’s not the SELF LOVE, but
The SELF HATE , I learnt at nine.

Crying as a bullied teen
I heard a voice one night –

“your body is only yours
Your scars are sunshine.
No matter what they say
It’s their unpaid job to criticise.”

It’s not my mother. But
My mirror made me realise –

YOUR BODY IS ONLY YOURS
WHETHER YOU ARE NINE OR NINETY NINE.

                                                               – Noor

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